I was listening to that song the other day on my iPod. I forgot how much I loved Nirvana. I am still trying to forgive myself and stop feeling like such an idiot for swearing off secular music for the past 5 years. At least I saved one Nirvana CD, the black album.
On a side note, hello, did you know about this lala thing? What a freaking awesome thing. I can embed a song on my blog. How much does that rock?
Back to the apologies.
First up, I am sorry to tell you this, but remember that list of things I wanted to blog about that I posted the other day? Well, I am not going to blog about them right now. I know, I know. They have a name for girls like that. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have set up the expectation if I wasn’t going to follow through. It’s not really fair to you, dear reader.
It’s just that I felt like taking a little detour and blogging about how I became a Christian and how I came to leave Christianity. No one really knows the whole story. I just really feel like now is the time. I am at a place where I need to put these things together for myself, so I might as well post it for all the world to see, right?
I’ll tell you what, though. I will go back through that list and add links where appropriate. Here goes.
- I listened to a great podcast today about skepticism and libertarianism.
- Glenn Beck is a total creep. No, I mean more so than you thought. (Added: I have to question what is in the mind of a man who got to that quote from that video.)
- Thoughts about the blog, by a woman who left the Quiverfull/Patriarchy movement, that I have been obsessively reading.
- A video a Christian friend sent me and stuff it brought up about my Christian experience.
I will still probably blog about those things, except the Glenn Beck one, which speaks for itself.
In sooth, I will probably not blog about the Mass. election. What’s there to say at this point that someone else hasn’t already said and better? The Moran Plant, again, probably not, but hey, at least 99.9% of you couldn’t give a crap, since it’s such a local issue.
I am so totally going to blog about Billy Corgan and Jessica Simpson because (1) I think it’s funny, (2) I ♥ Smashing Pumpkins, and (3) I will eventually want to break up the serious posts with something light.
And, I will publish my currently-in-draft post about dogmatism that uses radical unschoolers as a non-religious example. But maybe not. I don’t want to attract too much hate.
I already wrote my first post about how I became a Christian at the age of 28. I need to re-read it and obsessively edit it and add some bling, but it will be posted tonight or tomorrow morning.
The other apology-related thing has to do with the post, Former Christian Apologizes for Being Such a Huge Shit Head for All Those Years, from My Sister’s Farmhouse.
I have been feeling lately like I need to issue a public apology to homosexuals (and a few private ones to people I know who were personally offended by my beliefs), and probably some other groups, too. Her #1 totally applies to me word for word.
1. I apologize to all the homosexuals. I am sorry that I believed in a religion that condemns you. I am sorry that for many years I thought that the bible was right in it’s condemnation of homosexuality. I am sorry that when I no longer thought the bible was right about homosexuality being a sin, I did not raise a gigantic stink about it every Sunday right in the middle of the sermon… week after week after week… until the church issued a restraining order against me and I could no longer come within a hundred feet of the sanctuary.
Not everything on her list applies to me, but it’s worth reading.
What a wonderful and brave woman to take responsibility for those things.
Hey, I’m still reeling over the AWESOME CDs and first-person shooters I threw in the dumpster two years ago. I’m at the point now where I’ll think of a good book I used to have and wonder ‘Did I throw that out too?’. Really what I’m trying to say is, it’s OK. we can forgive ourselves and move forward. Maybe replace some of what we threw out too!!!
BTW, you’re blog looks great in Lynx!
Oops, I made a grammar mistake.
What I meant to say was ‘BTW, your blog looks great in Lynx!
You are such a dork, Bob, with your text-based web browser, but I love that you are as grammar-obsessed as I am. (That’s my husband. You can recognize him by the round head, glasses and sharp teeth.)
Ha! I can’t see it Lynx, but if you put a flannel shirt on it, I could use it for my driver’s license.
I read that apology post too, great stuff, very brave I think. And you are lucky, only 5 years of missing the music. 18 years makes it much harder to get back into listening to stuff you like. At least I got a little taste of Nirvana before giving that stuff up…
And you and Bob are funny, made me laugh. :^)
Charity,
Another interesting post. I am thankful you shared the link to the Christian video, God’s Chisel. It spoke to me; there is something really beautiful about it, and I am grateful to have watched it.
Again, thanks.
Also, Charity, because I am generally of a skeptical sort, I find that I don’t really buy the apology offered by My Sister’s Farmhouse. I followed the link you posted; I read the apology. But I was curious: Where and when did “Rechelle” ever speak ill of homosexuals? A word search of her blog barely produced a thing about homosexuals, or homosexuality; “gays” never registered a single hit. As for Christian terms, it seems she’s not used many of those, either.
So I am suspicious that Rechelle was actually ever what she depicts for us. Hers seems a bit of theatrical projection. It just doesn’t read as an honest apology at all. It is too polemical, too pointed, to be sincere. It’s as if she’s writing for some fictional character (whom she’s projected), instead of who she really is or really actually ever did or believed.
Just an opinion, of course. But it is interesting how little background information is available on her blog that would support her claims she abused all sorts of souls.